It has been a while since I last wrote mainly because I have been too busy sleeping or trying to figure out what my life is all about and why I fuck up on a daily basis, get mad at myself and fuck up yet again only to mess up yet again. This “destructive” behavior has brought me to a point where I was about to give up. Thankfully I have great friends and support from them to realize that when life is hard sometimes it’s okay to admit to being weak and ask for help.
That said, I wanted to share my experience with dating/seeing multiple people at the same time… Aside from the fact that it is daunting on my supper precious sleep time. Keeping track of what is happening could get out of hand and quite annoying. After the first week I came to the conclusion that # 3 would have to go right away. He is a cool guy, but I realized that dating someone who is a patron at the gym would be bad if things were to heat up and then get broken off. Glad I did that because I don’t feel bad now that I see him. Good thing I kept my head and did not let it go anywhere.
Guy # 2 was in the running for a good three weeks before I realized that I’m with him for all the wrong reasons. Glad I realized that, plus his gun/knife obsession was a bit too much for me to cope with. My breakup with him was by far the coolest breakup I have ever had, very easy and non-drama involving. The aftermath was a bit of a walk in San Francisco streets, but it seems that all is fine now and he’s cool with just as we are.
That brings us to Mr. # 1 whom I blamed for bringing out the worst in me, until I realized I let myself bring out the worst in me. Numero 1 is a cool guy but I feel that there is something I have to do for myself and that leads to going back to being single. So I thought, until we talked and he is willing to go the distance. Which brings me to my square one issue, is he someone I want to be with? Or should I stay single for a while and figure out what I want? If I choose the single road I will need to do some major soul searching. Hopefully my best friend will be there for me to help me out. I know she’s wanted the best for me for some time now even though I didn’t realize it, because I was too cooped up with my selfish self.
Anyway, there you have it… If you can juggle dating more than one fellow all the power to you, just make sure you don’t lose yourself in that juggle. Above all enjoy the experience and have fun! As for me, I have some decisions to make 
